As September quickly says good bye and we look forward to October, I had truly hoped Id have good news to write about and share with all of you sweet people who have been praying for me for the last few months.
A friend of mine recently joked that I should be payed to interview, since it seems like that's all I do these days. True it is. Nothing to report on the job front, though. Had an interview Friday, I have another with a different company tomorrow. Assuming Friday's interview went well, there should be a second interview by the end of this week or next.
Waiting.
I feel like I've written about waiting so much lately that I have nothing more profound to say on the subject. However, I have learned things about myself the more I find myself needing to practice the whole waiting thing.
Somewhere along my walk with the Lord I began to believe that if I wait the one extra week and pray and tell all my friends how I was waiting and trusting, that The Lord would notice me quickly and hurry the process along.. like there was a magical formula for recieving what The Lord has in store for me.
I am rather a I-cant-wait-for-the-next-thing-to-come-along kinda person. I love the anticipation, I love getting to it. I am constantly finding myself saying things like, "Cant wait til I have this place in order" or "Cant wait til I have that part of my car fixed" "Cant wait til this interview is behind me," etc.
Im all up in the living-in-the-moment stuff. I love when my dreams come true. But I've found that I've come to look up at God and see Him as a guy with his arms full of stuff he's going to give me at just the right time and I just have to get to the next thing before He gifts me it.
But, there is a verse in the Bible that says, "He withholds no good thing from those He loves."
I have to catch myself in my thinking and remind myself that The Lord handed down for me a piece of time in which He said, "Here, this gift is called 'the unknown' and it has many different gifts within itself. This is the part where you look back on all the gifts I've given you already and figure out how you can use them to unwrap this one."
And it's tricky because you have to use the gift of thankfulness to even beable to see the gift of waiting in the first place.
I am thankful. And Im still waiting. I sort of wish I could say that Ive made good use of my waiting and have friended all the locals and have no want for socializing. Rather, Ive made use of it by turning toward the local library and reading three novels before picking up the GRE study guide.
Im studying for my GRE mostly online.. but the book will help, hopefully. Between interviews and such, I have not yet had time to open it, but Ive only had it a few days.
Also! I'm coming to like my new city. Good ol' Des Moines. It has its nooks and crannys and little pockets of adventure here and there. I explored a giant mansion modeled after a king's castle in England the other day. How one came to be in the middle of Des Moines, Iowa is a curious thing. Of course I asked, and the story goes that some man in a small house with a wife and 4 teenaged sons discovered and patented liquid foundation and other beauty products. The man became instantly wealthy and the wife, going crazy to be stuck in a little house with 4 teenaged boys, wanted a big ol' large house for the boys to run around and go crazy. Thus, they found the perfect house in England where all of their dreams would come true. However, that perfect house in England was occupied and so, doing what any rich, wealthy family would do, they replicated it in Des Moines, Iowa.
I'm sure there are more details about my life that I could be sharing. Seeing as I had another interview this morning, I'm still in rather a fog and can't think of much. I will say, I rather like days that I wear a suit and blazer and all things corporate. It makes me feel like I'm doing something with my life. Hopefully someday, It will be for more than just the 40 minutes it takes to drive to the interview, talk about myself, and then drive home.
